(As of March 20, 2022) As many of you know, I decided to embark on a new life adventure.  A journey to nowhere and everywhere, a journey of discovery both externally and internally.  Do you ever ask yourself, “what’s it all about” – this life, the people we meet, the experiences we have?  Do any of us really know?  I know I want to understand, what, I’m not really sure.  Perhaps it’s simply to gain a better understanding of myself.  I know that when I contemplate that question, it brings tears to my eyes, so there must be something there to be revealed.  So, for the next 12-24 months, I will live intentionally “homeless”, traveling to different parts of the country (and perhaps the world) searching for my truth and where “I belong”.  I may come full circle, I may not.  

I had intended to write this as a blog post, but I haven’t figured out how to do that yet so I’m doing it in an email to begin….

I woke up this morning in my new temporary home in Reno, where I’ll live for the next month, after having the best night’s sleep in a long time.  Exhaustion cannot adequately describe how tired I have been from the past several weeks of purging and packing up my home along with the anxiety of knowing that I will be intentionally “homeless” for the next year or so.   I had not anticipated the amount of logistics involved in taking on this venture.  Much like giving birth the first time, it’s probably better not to know how much pain is involved before doing it 😂.  

In addition to leaving my lovely home and good friends in beautiful Tahoe, I continue to grieve two people who were incredibly instrumental in my life and whom I loved very much.  They were two significant mentors and anchors in my life whose love I was blessed to receive in abundance.  Both passed away within six months of each other just over a year ago.  Strangely, leaving my home intensified the grief of losing them even though they had no connection to my Tahoe home. What’s that all about?  Perhaps it was the realization of leaving everything near and dear to me behind to start on this new part of my life journey without either of them in my life; perhaps it is the fear of not being grounded anywhere or by anyone.  Is this what freedom is?  Scary!

Thank you to those of you who have been “with me” during this time.  I greatly appreciated your loving support as I made my way through to this point, especially during my meltdowns.  And, a special thanks to my son without whose help in my final hours of need during packing I would have crashed and burned ❤️.  But, I am not leaving all of you behind, dear friends and family.  You may join me on my journey by following my blog and I will carry you in my heart.